i can't stop sneezing.
it's weird how when you want time to speed up it refuses to do anything but drag on and on. and then in those moments when you just wish it'd stand still for a second so that, if nothing else, you could find your bearings again...no deal. it's like time's got some kind of grudge.
so, it's april already and before i know it it will be june 26th (because this is one of those moments when i wish time would drag). i guess i feel almost completely ready to leave and not nearly ready enough to be there. i've made just about as many plans as i can make and i think i'm as prepared as anyone ever really is for something like this...but just in the last week a whole new set of doubts and fears has arisen in me, and hit me hard. and i have no idea what i'm doing.
so, it's april already and before i know it it will be june 26th (because this is one of those moments when i wish time would drag). i guess i feel almost completely ready to leave and not nearly ready enough to be there. i've made just about as many plans as i can make and i think i'm as prepared as anyone ever really is for something like this...but just in the last week a whole new set of doubts and fears has arisen in me, and hit me hard. and i have no idea what i'm doing.
posted by Amy at 12:53 PM
3 Comments:
You know what you're doing, you're serving The Lord!
Uncertainty is part of the journey. Granted, it's the part that makes you want to punch somebody in the face, but part of it, nevertheless. Lean into it. I'll be praying God brings you through it with a lot of goodness. Be the courageous woman he made you to be in the face of whatever your fears are and make us proud!
thank you for the recommendation, nathan, i will check out the claritin-d. if the allergies are bad i usually take some benadryl...but i can only do that if i don't plan on having to be conscious for about 5 or 6 hours.
and indeed i do want to punch somebody in the face, denise. thanks for understanding. and thanks for the encouragement. it definitely helps to know i've got people standing behind me in all this.
paddy...i can't tell you how glad i am that you're going to be there with me for the first couple weeks of this.
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