Wednesday, December 14, 2005

i could have gotten better grades this semester if i hadn't been trying to learn spanish.

how's this for a load of (insert appropriate foul language here)? i've spent five months writing to a guy in ecuador. i like this guy. a lot. i want to go back and spend more time there, working with their drama group, working with the youth, especially with the girls. and obvously, getting to know Leo better. how much can i really learn about him through e-mails and text messages anyway? i wrote to Sandra last week. she is Marcelo's wife, they are missionaries from Chile who planted this church in ecuador. i wrote to her to say, "hey, i've been thinking i'd really like to come back in the summer and spend time there, and yes, a significant part of this desire comes from wanting to get to know this guy better in person, but i wouldn't want to come to ecuador just to go on a few dates with someone. i would love to help with the theater in the church if i can, i feel really passionate for that ministry." i thought it would be better to be up front with that. she writes back saying basically, "we would love to have you. it would be good for Manuel if you worked with him on the theater ministry. but we would only be ok with this if you are just friends with Leo. Marcelo has talked with him about this and he knows that." he has? interesting. so i write to Leo and say, "hey, this is what Sandra told me. why didn't you say anything about that before?" and the letter i get tonight says, "no, Marcelo never said anything like that, but if that's how you think it should be, then fine. i understand. goodbye friend."

am i overreacting by being a little hurt by this? or did i really just get an indirect "let's just be friends" five months later?

i feel like i'm going to throw up.

4 Comments:

Blogger Kevin Morrison said...

Wow. what are you going to do? You have to tell him that WASN'T what you were thinking and see how he really feels. Then you can figure out what to do.

7:28 AM  
Blogger media39 said...

sounds to me like a miscommunication somewhere. I agree with Kevin and you have to tell him your feelings. Lay them out...hope for the best.... Buena Suerte

8:15 AM  
Blogger Amy said...

thanks everyone, for the support. curt, thanks. really. it all seems to be working out just fine, and i think i still have an invitation to ecuador next summer to work on their theater ministry. so that's good. and alright, i am officially sorry, ryan kile, if you are reading, for any remarks i might have made in the past about you hooking up with chicks online. but let me just say, for the record, at least i never used your name and address to sign up on mailing lists which resulted in you receiving things that your mom didn't approve of in the mail. unlike some other people i know.

1:17 AM  
Blogger Kevin Morrison said...

Ditto, on the "Don't let people get in the way." Be the windshield, not the bug.

3:04 PM  

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